She usually makes a meal for herself that consists of something a bit more on the healthy side, so now she made it for two. We had 3 "meals" a day as opposed to my regular lunch and dinner. For our breakfast all she allowed me to eat was a bowl of oatmeal (made with water, eww...), a fruit, and a glass of carrot juice. This was before school and usually I don't eat breakfast so this was a bit of a change for me, a change that paid off. In school I feel really hungry and lose my attention quite easily because all I'm worried about is eating. Today however I felt that I didn't need food and when lunch came around I didn't have much of an appetite. After school we had our lunch which was grilled chicken breast and mixed veggies. I don't mind vegetables, I love them, and chicken is only second to a hearty piece of meat so this meal I didn't mind. When it came to dinner however I started to get uneasy. My mom is big on soy, ever since she was a small girl living in Mexico she says she lived off of cactus and soy. So she made some more veggies and then some soy... I labeled it fake meat because it looked like a slightly off colored meat, she mixed it in with chorizo to make it easier on me. I was reluctant to try it but when I did it tasted like nothing. All I tasted was the chorizo which was a relief, even though I'm not a fan of chorizo either.
I guess in the end I lied to myself because I'm sure one meal wouldn't make a difference but I can see my abs coming in already... not. This is probably a long term thing that I hope I can continue but with a slightly altered diet, one that I will feel comfortable eating.
*Allusion
As someone who has tried to "diet" for many years, I read this with interest... it's hard to stick to something long-term, but you have a good attitude for it. The little changes you referenced at the end are what eventually work, I think...
ReplyDeleteAlso pretty interesting how you talk about the high expectations that are put upon you by your family - looks like there are expectations (from your mom to herself) in the food sector also... I was kind of curious at first what cactus and soy would taste like but I think you answered my question and I now do not have to try it for myself. Ha ha.